broken sleep patterns always have the most unpredictable effects on me, and the way it swings both ways so erratically, you really cant get mental preparation for its consequences. i just want to be the rambuctious thing i am without having to care about shit like fatigue. its been a crazy week, to quote someone else who probably has been having a far more interesting time than i am. correct me if i'm wrong, but sleeping around regardless of your intentions or mutual agreements, still does make you kinda skanky ... doesn't it? or am i just more anal than i thought. all you new age modernists make me feel conservative and shit.
ok so i recently rediscovered my utterly irresponsible self with the help of various patronising individuals, and, to be real frank, i still dont give a rat's ass. i swear i'm not trying to go all 'wildchild' on anyone, and im certainly not into that whole rebellion phase either, god forbid. but i just dont naturally have a tendency to act responsible about things i dont give two hoots about. like school, for one. i dont give a fuck about school. i stay in school for the sake of finishing what i started. and the reason i started was because i still didnt know what i wanted to do with my life and it was sort of an insurance. but everything else can pretty much go to hell. as long as i dont get kicked out.
all this ranting, because someone questioned my 'aim in life'. god, i'm touchy like that. doesnt take much to blow my fuse. the less dreary my life is, the less i feel the need to resort to this blogging bullshit. so much has happened, but its funny how people assume that i just lock myself away everyday to play wow. i WISH i had the time man, school's a bitch. no actually, homework and tests and projects are really THE SHIT. i actually do enjoy school and the good things it brings along with the bad.
ok anyway. its late, and i'm aching all over from that strenuous running i did 6 hours ago. fucking hate when the delayed aching finally sets in. then again, it means i worked out, as opposed to walking around the running track with my cell phone acting as resistence. ok i'm a bag of contradictions as always. but all you other messed up people shld get my drift, right? i think? maybe i shld just go to bed.
*the best times are the ones we spend together in the most random fashion doing the most ordinary of things.
grace: i missed you. today was fun, right? :) i always feel the need to introduce everyone to my best friend. don't ask me why. maybe it IS true, i am your #1 fan -gag-