i will never quite understand why i bother but certain things need to stay dead and buried beneath the earth. i dont expect someone not in my position to comprehend the kind of feelings i continue to hold regarding past issues, but its inevitable that i make my discomfort known. i think those close to me are aware that i can be extremely blunt at times to the point that i become slightly tactless. but the extent of how straightforward i am with someone is always directly proportional to how much our friendship is worth to me. i may be the master of bottling up then exploding, but when i am genuinely bothered by a matter that involves a friend, i find it most relieving and effective to speak my mind. i would rather the other party know that i'm affected by his or her actions right away instead of allowing feelings of discontent to build up. i've come to realise that getting pissed off over petty matters is one of the biggest wastes of emotions and energy. i'm quite aware of my short-fused tendencies, and i apologize if i get ticked off easily. but i forgive and forget, despite repeated offences. it's when i'm down to my last straw, then your best choice is to just walk away, because there is no way in hell i am gonna tolerate your sorry ass wreaking havoc in my very peaceful life.