i'm really not psyched about becoming a parent. the thought alone scares me beyond comprehension. who the fuck wants to spend three whole decades, or more, trying to raise a kid only to realise your kid thinks you're fucked up? i am fully aware of how unfair i'm being, but i feel that at this very moment, it is justified by the unfairness that is being shown to me. everyone knows it aint no walk in the park. generation gaps aren't all myth and baloney. they really do play a significant part in creating rifts between people from different generations. and things get even uglier when someone from an older generation is simply adamant to change, is too rigid, and feels bound to time-honoured codes that sprouted from traditional periods.
i don't even know where this is going.
i feel like i just got shot in the head. the fact that i'm also bleeding half to death is not the best thing to be happening right now. a lot of the time, silence is the best remedy to conflict. spacing out mid-conversation (or in my case, mid-lecture), fiddling, standing when the other person is sitting - it all kind of adds up to this calm and collected front which makes a temporary fortress to the verbal attacks being lashed out. it isn't fair. i don't feel that i was prepared enough for this war of words. i also didnt think it wouldve put me in a very advantageous position if i'd allowed myself to make irretrievable remarks that i didnt have much time to think about before letting it go pass my lips.
i think it is terribly narrow-minded to categorize someone as mediocre based purely on their academic standing. i mean wtf is wrong with mediocre grades? so they say i'm a mediocre student because i've never gone beyond an A, and i've got a whole load of Bs from all three ranges. 'scuse me if i'm wrong, but i dont think there's anything too mediocre about your daughter. i am so far from mediocre sometimes, i think it'd be safer if you just put me in a straitjacket.