aside from the literally back-breaking ordeal of packing and unpacking, moving into my new place has been an exhilirating experience. watching an empty room with bare walls get transformed into the cosy lil thing it is now just gives me this unbelievable sense of accomplishment. imagine this, for the first time in my life, i can enjoy cable tv. i mean, fuck, who the hell doesnt have cable at home ? well practically everyone i know does .. spoilt brats, all of you __
so the past coupla weeks have been a huge pain in the ass, what with mountains of boxes and the dust in accompaniment. but i've finally settled down, and right now, it feels like i dont need anything else. i'm contented as can be just lying on my fluffy mutli-coloured aussino duvet and matching pillows, watching E! Entertainment with my laptop switched on beside me and the a/c turned on. total bliss, dudes.
the most awesome part is probably the fact that i actually have quite a collection of neighbours. not to make them sound like vintage collectibles or anything, but its just amazing how many pple i know live nearby. it feels good having everything within reach :) being in town wasnt always the greatest thing, contrary to what most people think. at least now, if i forget to take stuff home from sch or need anything, pple are more than happy to drop by and pass stuff to me on their way home/out. very very convenient. excuse me while i swim in this moment of bliss.
anyhow, as though maintaining equilibrium is absolutely necessary to prevent one's world from toppling over, the good stuff always is followed by some bad shit. having things fall apart isnt exactly new to me, but i would consider this an unexpected blow to my trusting nature. its funny how you'd started off not trusting anyone and being a commitment-phobe. then meeting someone who teaches you to have a lil faith and just let go of your inhibitions. and finally, letting the same acts of lies and deceit get replayed over and over again before your very eyes by that very person who'd taught you to trust. its really quite tragic, and it sure as hell spells stupidity. i am s-t-u-p-i-d.
its ironic how i'm having an msn conversation right now and telling the other party about my high threshold for pain. you really never know how much you can take till someone takes you far enough. they repeatedly elevate you, then let you plunge to the ground, head first, while they watch and snicker at how easy it'd been to convince you in letting em use you as a guinea pig.
melancholic shit aside, i think its healthiest to just release yourself completely for a period of time. i'm thankful for friendships that've lasted despite the turbulence and thunderstorms they've had to weather. its comforting to know that there're things that never change, and those are the ones you keep closest to your heart.
ok, time for dinner at fullerton :) seafood buffet, anyone ? never really been a seafood person, but all my meals today have been fully seafood. anyways, its fullerton, should be beyond satisfactory ! and because i'm sucha pig and a half, i will most likely enjoy whatever they've got to offer.